I should stay away from people.  How come every friendship I have I ruin completely?  I can't control the things I say sometimes but if someone says something offending, I'm going to fight back.  I didn't used to do that and maybe that's why people are hating me for it. It's unexpected and they're used to pushing me around. But I'm sick of being pushed around!  I can lose a friend so quickly and so easily. I hate it. If I ever hurt you I didn't do it on purpose. It's just different for me. Gah. Imma leave society for a while. Hike the Appalachian Trail for 7 months. Alone. I won't hurt anyone or ruin any relationships. Sorry.