Ever since I got to college I have felt so at home and had so much fun that I didn't want to leave. Heck, I even forgot about mass and all my high school friends here.  College is where it's at! I've never had more fun in my life.  I mountain bike every day on real mtn biking trail, backpack on the weekends, climb almost every day...and then i do some school work.  But getting back home here is weird because I'm not in my happy nature bubble anymore.  Mass popped my bubble and I'm getting all confused as to which friends are from where.  I just miss maine. and my maine friends.  It's only been a few hours...

I had another weird dream last night/this morning so I slept until 11.  So imma tell all de interwebs about it.

So to start off I was walking down the street to borrow a alien halloween costume from Nicole and there were these plastic bags hanging from trees and there was an egg in each one but it was hollow and tied up with string and then Chris and Jake came up behind me and they were like "The nerds are having an easter egg hunt!"  So they like started dragging me down the other street and I was like "no! I need to get to Nicole's!"

So at that point I was near the center of town and saw some kids on skateboards so I grabbed my skateboard and rode back to Nicole's house.  So when I was there I went in and it was like this Puerto Rican family and the mom led me to the back of a room and I put on this spandex red martian costume but now I was this little chubby girl from dance and my belly was all hanging out of the spandex and I was like "well that's not attractive" and took the thing off. 

But now Nicole was my friend Hunter and I was back in the main part of the room and all her shelves were organized by color and type of clothing and the shelves were all over the walls.  So I though I would try on some of her clothes while I was there so i tried on a couple pairs of jeans then put them back and then I tried on this pair of salmon colored jeans and before I could put them back her mom looked over the half wall near me and was like "how was the costume?" So I tried to put the pants back on a shelf but they didn't match the colors and the shelf was for shorts, not jeans.  So after trying a bunch of other things, I finally said to her mom that I looked at her jeans to find out where she got them but I couldn't find where to put them back so she put them back for me. 

Then I had to walk her dog or something but I didn't have a leash so I had to go into her sister's closet and find belts to tie together but I couldn't find any that I could hook together so I crawled further into her closet because she had belts covering the walls. But then I heard her come into her room and I freaked out and crawled out this window in her closet and walked around the house with the dog but the family was waiting in front of the house and they attacked when I went by because they thought I was stealing their dog but the dog was like "It's alright she was taking me for a walk" and everyone was like "oh okay cool."

The End

Prom is tonight! I'm more excited for dressing up than the actual prom.  I could care less about the dance and the awful music and getting sick from eating some form of pasta.  I eat like 90% raw now and eating pasta makes me feel icky.  I'll probably just pick out the vegetables and eat those.  It's not like it's a huge waste cuz our ticket was only $25.  The trolley costs more than the prom: $45. ughhhhh. I'd rather take a minivan or something free but Oleg was signed up before we were going together so I got added to the list and he paid the deposit so I couldn't do anything.  It is extremely hot today.  I just worked out in the basement and I was sweating buckets even though its 20 degrees cooler down there. I can't wait til I can shower.  I haven't shaved my legs all week so they'll stay smooth longer when I do.  It's gross.  And I'm all sweaty and ick.  But if I shower now I'll just get sweaty later. Mleh. I'm dreading straightening my hair.  Too hot next to my head.  Maybe I'll do it in the basement.


Anyway, it's so weird being out of school.  All that's left is prom and graduation! and a piano lesson/recital. and arts encore night. I get 3 awards! woohoo!! I wanna know what they areeeeeeeee.  I need a job or something.  Mass Audubon only has volunteer things. I need money!  Someone find me a job!

I got a new laptop. It's a Sony VAIO and it's purple! It's the prettiest color ever. My sis has a pink one. (mine's prettier).  And we got a free xbox with it because it was over $699.99.  But it only has one controller.  So if anyone has extra controllers or games they could sell me, or if you know anyone that does, that would be fantastic.

Epic Day

It's the end of Hell Week for Footloose! well..pretty much.

We performed for the middle schools (I guess that should be singular since only one school came) so we all got to miss classes to put the show on.  Technically we could have gone to the first 2 periods, half of long block, and last period but most people took advantage of the excused absence and stayed in the theater department all day.  And because the show went so well we didn't have to have rehearsal after school!! Lately we've been there til at least 8 for tech stuff.  I have a lot of down time though because, being in the pit, I don't have to move or remember lines or do tech stuffs. Just play a couple songs, watch the play, make jokes that no one but the pit can hear... it's fun.  I get to play auxiliary percussion like tambourine and cowbell :D

But after school when everyone was going home I had to stay after for a piano lesson then give an hour long viola lesson.  Then around 2:30 I got a text saying my lesson was canceled and then Adam texted me saying that his dad rescheduled his guitar lesson for today so I was free from both!  I went home and went for a walk in the woods and played on the little tree islands in the swampy area.  I found some cool little places to hang out in the woods back there.  After that I ate food and watched 90s cartoons and stuff :D

Good day.

http://www.express.com/rouched-one-shoulder-colorblock-dress-35936-22.pro?Mcatn=Dresses&Mpper=3&Mcatp=cat_2&Mcat=22&Mpos=4&Mpg=SEARCH%2BNAV&Mcatg=category_root&Mcatpn=For+Her&user_att_name=Interest&user_att_value=Email&Mrsaa=*&Mrsavf=SIZE_NAME&Mrsavf=category&Mrsavf=Color&Mppg=0

That's mah prahm drass.

only $88.

I like coupons.

It makes me look like I have a butt.

It's nice.

It's actually machine wash.

It says so on the tag.

I think the website lies.

It's been an expensive weekend so far but a good one.

Friday was the hypnotist show. SO hilarious. I want to get a hypnotist instead of a moon bounce at my grad party.
Then yesterday I had to go out to Boston to get my sound post on my violin fixed.  $75 there plus the cost of 2 A strings. Then I decided to leave my wood bow there to get re-haired so that's another $60.  But on the way over there we stopped at REI to get a new day pack for me for hiking cuz I don't have my own and I'll need one in college.  It's really nice. And since I'm so tall I was able to get a men's pack.
http://www.gregorypacks.com/products/mens/technical/254/z-40
I got the blue one. It's purrdy.  But it was about $100 after using coupons and member discounts... ugh. Worth it though.

Then today I'm going out wif mah mommy to go to Wrentham outlets. I'm gonna try to find a prom dress at Karen Millen.  That store is so great. At the outlet the dresses are marked down so much that you can find one for about $30. Unfortunately I spent like $150 last year cuz the dress I got wasn't marked down a lot. But I love that dress. I could wear it anywhere formal cuz it's short.  I'm getting another short dress this year. I can't dance in a long dress and after prom last year I saw so many people with ripped hems and that's gotta suck. Spend a ton of money on a dress and then ruin it the one night you wear it.  Short dresses are the way to go.

Look at me..talking about clothes and shopping.  Oh my.

Got my blue Nikes and a prom date all in one day! and finished my short! It's up on Facebook if you wanna see it. Visible to friends of friends so most likely you can see it if you're not my friend.  Also, the shoes shipped yesterday and came today. That's some speedy shipping! I'm wearing them tomorrow. They're gorgeous.

Update...
After emailing Nike, this wonderful man named Jeffery emailed me back within 12 hours (they said it could be within 48) and helped me out! He searched the inventory or all the Nike stores and found one in FL and one in NY.  He gave me the phone number so we could order over the phone and so that's what we did and they'll be on their way on Monday! Kerstin can't wait to get her hands on the pink ones but I told her I want to wear them one more time to bike in.  Here's a picture of them. So exciting!

I got my new Nike Free XTs today. They're pink. Like, bright pink. Hot pink. They look really cool and they fit/work really well but pink so not me. I look at my feet and feel like a barbie.  I wish I had the blue ones but they're out of stock in my size EVERYWHERE. I'm emailing Nike right now to ask if they're going to restock them.  Or demand them to make a pair in size 10.  My sister will take the pink ones if I can get the blue ones because she was going to get the pink ones.

vegan...not working. I'm eating yogurt as I write this. Dinner is always like, oh hey cheese, you're gonna make me vomit. But I don't have other options when my sister is here eating all of my healthy food!!!!!!! Then she's like, I wanna make this pizza tonight! Bread+cheese+tomato chunks+sour cream+chips on top. Vomit. It made me feel awful.
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she bugs me!

It's official. I'm just gonna be vegan for the rest of the month. I want all the kinds of fruit! And twizzlers and unfrosted pop-tarts are vegan. woohoo!

This is turning into one of those health blogs.

After using MyPyramid.gov to track food for years, I've started to lose my confidence in it.  After tracking my breakfast this morning I don't think I'll be using it as a reliable source.

My breakfast smoothie:
-1 cup blueberries
-1/2 cup raspberries
-2 tbs almond butter
-1 1/2 cup almond milk
-1 tsp agave nectar
-1 tbs cacao

according to MyPyramid.gov:

Food Energy/Total Calories (kcals)	568	2011
Protein (gm)	21	46
Carbohydrate (gm)	70	130
Total Fiber (gm)	20	26
Total Fat (gm)	28.4	15.8 - 22.1
Saturated Fat (gm)	2.7	< 6.3
Monounsaturated Fat (gm)	14	**
Polyunsaturated Fat (gm)	8	**
Linoleic (omega 6) (gm)	7.1	11
Alpha Linolenic (omega 3) (gm)	0.8	1.1
Cholesterol (mg)	0	< 300
Vitamin A (mcg RAE)	13	700
Vitamin C (mg)	27	65
Vitamin E (mg a-TE)	10.2	15
Thiamin (mg)	0.7	1
Riboflavin (mg)	0.6	1
Niacin (mg)	3.1	14
Folate (mcg, DFE)	65.1	400
Vitamin B6 (mg)	0.4	1.2
Vitamin B12 (mcg)	0	2.4
Calcium (mg)	156.7	1300
Phosphorus (mg)	403.7	1250
Magnesium (mg)	204.1	360
Iron (mg)	4.6	15
Zinc (mg)	2.5	9
Selenium (mcg)	7	55
Potassium (mg)	1045	4700
Sodium (mg)	192	1500 - 2300

So my issue here.  It doesn't distinguish between good sources of fat and everything else.  It's also very unspecific with the brands of foods; I couldn't pick almond milk so I had to put down soy milk and I couldn't pick cacao so I put down carob.  So all the fat it tracked (from the almonds most likely) is good fat that you need on a low carb diet.  The fats from sources like coconut and nuts may raise cholesterol but overall, it raises good cholesterol and lowers bad cholesterol. Nuts also provide nutrients that you sometimes can't find in other places.  http://www.sixwise.com/newsletters/05/06/29/if-you-are-nuts-about-health-try-the-top-6-healthiest-nuts.htm

I think that's pretty much all. 

My mom made brownies. That's just mean. Why not make the house smell really good and eat them in front of me when I can't have any. Thanks.

This may not last a while.  I might just end up going straight vegan instead. I miss tomatoes and pears and bananas and strawberries and grapes. So sad.

Health Freak

3 more days and I start the Clean program.

I highly suggest reading the book Clean by Alejandro Junger. Definitely life changing. Or lifestyle changing at least. In just the first few chapters I learned so much about how the body works and how different foods affect the body.  There's a list of foods you can and can't eat on the Clean diet.  Some of the ones you can't are tomatoes, oranges, strawberries, soy products, gluten, dairy, eggs, and a bunch of other things.  The whole idea of the program is to detox the body while restoring it to natural health. Basically returns you to the state you were made to be in. It's 3 weeks long (with some prep time) and includes some recipes in the back of the book while is extremely helpful because it requires replacing breakfast and dinner with liquid meals.  When food is in liquid form it takes less energy to digest so the body can you more energy for detox and restoration. It also eliminates common allergens (i.e. strawberries, chocolate, gluten, and soy) because when eaten (especially if you are allergic) they cause the body to go into attack mode, preventing it from getting any nutrients or digesting because it's spending its energy on destroying whatever you just consumed.
The main focus is detox though.  Toxins are in so many things we consume/breathe and damage the villi and microvilli in our intestines, preventing us from getting the nutrients we need.  By removing the toxins, the villi are restored, etc. We get healthy.

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-239/Q-A-with-Dr-Alejandro-Junger-On-The-Clean-Program-21-Day-Detox-Cleanse-and-More.html

I made my friend send me a flower for valentine's day so I would feel loved.  How pathetic is that.  And I only got three valentines, one being from my mother.

Such a lonely day. Not to mention boring as hell.  I didn't do anything. I couldn't do anything. I couldn't read music at all. Orchestra was so difficult. At least in string all we did was play scales so that didn't require music.  I even tried to read my book during study long after I went to a practice room and failed at playing everything. I got through one page in 40 minutes. It was an awful day. Maybe I'm getting sick or something. I think I need a day off. Major day off. I don't want to miss gym tomorrow though. And I have a stats quiz which I will fail but I'd rather fail tomorrow then postpone it and fail even more miserably.
Wahoo.

Netflix...I have a love-hate relation with it. On the one hand, it means I can get yoga and pilates workout videos whenever I want. On the other hand, I've been watching, on average, 3 movies a day on weekends and about 5 episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer a day during the school week.  I need an intervention.  Maybe someone should come over and make snowmen with me or a snow fort or both because the snow is good for that finally. 

I've been wicked health-conscious lately. It might be getting a little extreme.  I'm constantly checking nutrition facts on food for fat content and carbs.  I don't think I can lower my carb intake much since I don't eat meat but I don't think I'll have a problem with that with all the exercising I've been doing.  I get home from school, ski 20 minutes on the Nordic Track, do yoga for about 45 min, then around 30 min of pilates along with the classic ab exercise from dance so that's another 5ish minutes.  After that I track my food intake on mypyramid.gov which is wonderful.  And I don't eat after 8.  Wii Fit is also pretty great with tracking the physical stuff.  I haven't done much exercising with that since we got Netflix but it's still pretty fun. One flaw in my plan...I've been angling the Nordic Track to the left so I can watch Rugrats or Buffy while skiing. However, after doing that for about a month I've realized that my left thigh is slightly skinnier than my left and so I figured it's probably due to the fact that I've been putting more weight on my left leg while skiing so I can see the tv.  Fixed that problem hopefully: I angled it to the right now and I'll leave it like that for a month and after that I'll alternate each day.  So far I've stuck to my schedule 95% of the time. The other 5% I'm either really busy or sick.  But I find that if I'm sick, exercising help me get better a lot faster than just lying around.

Oh wait, another problem.  I don't do homework at home or practice all my instruments very much anymore because of Netflix.  At least I have 1.5 studies to do my work and get a practice room if I feel like it.

Also, this will be yet another valentines day where I don't have a date.  Every year I'm single around valentines day. It's like a gap in my dating life.  I've been in quite a few relationships and not one of them has lasted till valentines day. Love sucks. Maybe I'll go on a date with my mother. I owe her one.

I'm really going health crazy. It's like 8th grade all over again.

I decided today is childhood nostalgia day.
Plan for today:
Wake up late and make pancakes (raspberry and chocolate chip) with orange juice
Play in the snow- I made a tunnel/den but it collapsed on me. Then I tried to make my way around the yard....hardest thing ever. You can't walk but when you try to crawl you get lost up to your shoulders. I also got frost bite on my lower back :] classic.
Have hot chocolate
Watch Sleeping Beauty
Make grilled cheese and tomato soup because we don't have Ramen
Play Spyro on PS1
Make Kraft mac and cheese with ketchup and pepper for dinner

I'll probably add some more stuff in between

I miss dance.  I found myself ranting about pointe shoes on Tina's blog. Sorry, Tina. I want to take some classes but it would be weird to go back to the studio now. I don't know when I could go anyway since it's competition season and most of the classes are for rehearsals now. I should break out my tap shoes and dance in the kitchen. I miss tap the most probably.

I wish I had a bunny. They're so soft and adorable!

This post is going to be totally random but whatever.

We had breakfast for dinner tonight. I love doing that. Even though pancakes make me feel kind of sick. Speaking of being sick, I think I'm getting sick. I had really bad chest pains for a couple days and I was freaking out cause I didn't know what it was. But last night started coughing and it was sort of a wheezing cough so that's  probably why I had chest pains..I hope. I really hope because I ran today despite it hurting because I figured if it's from getting sick it must not be too serious. I don't like not exercising. It makes me feel sicker haha. It seriously taking me 30 minutes to type this. I type a sentence, wait for the computer to respond and make words show up, then wait some more for it to stop freaking out.

It seems like every time I watch a movie lately I start crying at some point at the smallest, most insignificant things. I was bawling at the end of Gattaca today. I think I cried at the end of Pinocchio too. On another off note, there is a preview for Spiceworld before Gattaca. Old school.

Sooooo pumped! Going to see the Decemberists tomorrow wif mah ma and pa! They love them too but maybe not as much as me :] I was getting music off my dad's computer one day and I saw that he had a couple Decemberists albums..the ones I didn't have. It was a delightful surprise.

Goal for 2011: ambidexterity.

It only took me 5 minutes to master using chopsticks with my non-dominant hand (left) and last year I took my notes with my left hand. Well actually notes were split. Right page = right hand, left page = left hand. It's more convenient.  So really my goal is to match the dexterity of my left hand with my right hand.

I've always wanted to fill a shoe box with my favorite trinkets. Like little things passed down from my grandma. Some valuable stuff too. And then I'd bury the box in the ground for someone to find years from now when everything inside is priceless and wonderful to whoever finds it.

I feel bad for pet fish. What a boring life. They just swim in circles and occasionally get transferred to a different bowl to clean the old one..but only for a half hour or so. Most of my fish died the first day I had them. It was traumatizing for an 8 year old to lose fish that quickly right after I named them. I named one John after my uncle. He died in one day. Sunshine also died the same day. They probably died of boredom. I should have given them some video games to play. Or jacks. Can fish play jacks? I should have found out.  At least they would die in an exciting way.

I hate family. I hate having to repeat myself. I hate having to explain everything I do. I hate people calling me Kerstin. I hate people asking me questions. I hate having the TV volume up so loud I can hear it in the attic. I hate how everyone has to yell for my grandpa to hear them. I hate how people force me to eat. I hate how it takes 2 hours to look for a movie that no one even wants to watch. I hate the Waltons. I hate Animal Planet. I hate the Inspiration channel. I hate gospel music. I hate how my sister talks like a baby to old people.  I hate sharing my bathroom with my grandpa. I hate how I can't sleep. I hate how I cry when I sing. I hate how my laptop is too slow to play Tetris or any other games. I hate how I can't read when people are yelling. I hate having to eat left overs because other people are having seafood. I hate when people yell at me for eating too fast. I hate how there are too many cookies in the house. I hate that I don't dance or fence anymore. I hate that I haven't finished a book since November. I hate that I haven't read a book since December. I hate how food makes me so sick.  I hate how I can't beat Gohma. I hate that I can't finish anything. I hate that I haven't finished any piece of music I've written. I hate that I've never made central districts and everyone acts so surprised. I hate that I'm awful at violin and people think I'm good. I hate pizza. I hate how my hands get sweaty when I run. I hate how I think of Sarah Palin every time someone mentions Alaska.  I hate football. I hate golf. I hate people who are obsessed with material wealth. I hate yoga pants that aren't being worn for yoga.  I hate how I have brown fur stuck to the bottom of my feet after I wear my boots. I hate how my cousins think I love cheetah print when I absolutely hate it. I hate metal silverware. I hate fat lazy cats. I hate fish, dead or alive. I hate chick flicks. I hate pink. I hate Nicholas Cage.  I hate being told what to do. I hate having to wash my clothes. I hate not being able to go outside because its below zero.  I hate the way my sister laughs. I hate sleeping with my window closed. I hate being nice to people when I really want to hit them. I hate hauling percussion equipment off trucks. I hate not wearing gloves outside. I hate that my mom steals my socks. I hate handing out programs. I hate adults that assume I'm an idiot and I don't know anything. I hate chairs and stands. I hate that oboist.  I hate that my violin doesn't fit in my locker with my viola. I hate how inconsiderate people are because they're so selfish. I hate that my parents butt into my personal life. I hate how I don't have any really close friends. I hate how my hands smell after I eat pizza.  I hate studying for midterms. I hate failing classes. I hate being asked what my favorite things are. I hate how the front left burner on the stove doesn't turn on so it leaks gas for a few seconds and makes the whole kitchen smell like death. I hate how the little red bowls can't go in the microwave. I hate sponges. I hate dirty dish water. I hate American Idol. I hate 99% of famous female vocalists. I hate sharing a bus with chorus kids. I hate talking about college. I hate talking to strangers.  I hate interviews. I hate heart burn. I hate stretch marks. I hate growing. I hate my wisdom teeth. I hate that my dentist said I'm not getting my wisdom teeth out. I hate 4th finger on viola. I hate flossing. I hate brushing my teeth. I hate turning on the light when I shower. I hate that I have no ass.  I hate that I don't own nice clothes. I hate that I don't want to spend money on nice clothes. I hate that I want nice clothes. I hate that I don't own thick enough gloves so I have to double them up. I hate that my sister thinks she's funny and has my dad's sense of humor but she doesn't at all and she's not funny. I hate that I can't remember my dreams. I hate that my dreams aren't real. I hate that I have to eat. I hate that I don't chew my food. I hate that I've never broken any bones, choked, or passed out for more than a minute. I hate that I never ride my bike anymore. I hate that I don't have enough money for nice roller skates. I hate that I probably have enough money for roller skates but I haven't got around to getting them. I hate that I haven't got my license yet. I hate chocolate cake. I hate fondant. I hate cities. I hate large groups of people. I hate people. I hate New York City. I hate French. I hate France. I hate French people. I hate French Fries. I hate that I hate French Fries because I had I bad dream about them. I hate baby carrots because they look like dry, dehydrated flesh. I hate that I love steak but I'm a vegetarian. I hate that I don't get a car until sophomore year of college. I hate eye drops. I hate that I feel nauseous 12 hours a day. I hate that I have to take antidepressants. I hate that I chose to play violin instead of harp. I hate that I quit cello. I hate that I didn't get a 5 string electric violin. I hate that I love him and I don't do anything about it. I hate Netflix. I hate that I look like my mom. I hate that my eyes won't turn green until I'm older. I hate that my blue blanket leaves fuzz on everything. I hate how people yell at me and tell me what to do in college. I hate that I took advice from that stupid guy who told me not to major in music. I hate how he told me music is only a hobby for me. I hate adults, all of them. I hate how I don't eat things after the expiration date. I hate snow. I hate technology. I hate fluorescent lights. I hate eye strain. I hate how the Nordic Track makes my right calf hurt more than my left. I hate lower back pain. I hate that I never took gymnastics because my mom wouldn't let me. I hate that this list is so long. I hate that I hate everything.

UNH>UVM
UNH is giving me way more money and it's less expensive in the first place, it have a better music department is I ever want to do that, and it has lots of good food. It's just not in a location like UVM. I like big green mountains, not the ocean and rocks.  But if it's cheaper I don't care. The people are a little different but oh well..I'll have to deal. 

I'm afraid I won't make any friends. But I guess I'll figure that out when I actually go to college.

I have a phone interview for a college tomorrow at 3. I'm kind of freaking out because I've never had an interview before... I don't even want to go to this college but my goal is to get into all 5 colleges I applied to and this will be the 5th.  I gotta make myself sound cool: I'm a figure skater from Ethiopia but was raised in Lebanon, moved to America at age 7 and began pursuing Olympic curling at age 8. I then won 5 gold medals and met president Obama at his inauguration and sang him patriotic songs beside Aretha Franklin.

I think that will do.