November 26, 2010
I can't eat raw carrots. They just scare me. I used to have bad dreams about food tasting awful and then I couldn't eat it for a few years. It's happened with popcorn, school french fries (sorry, "potato wedges"), plain potato chips, even toothpaste. Now it's happening with healthy food. Carrots are the first to go. They're fine when they're cooked but when they're raw....they're all dried up and gross looking like I'm eating dried flesh. mmm
November 25, 2010
I try to stay out of the kitchen while people are cooking on thanksgiving but around 11 I decided to start cooking my tofurkey. I tried to go downstairs to get an onion and I slipped on the second or third stair and fell directly on my tail bone about two more steps down. It was like that out of body pain like all your attention is focused in that one area and you can't think of anything else. For about 5 minutes I was just gasping in pain but because I was laying on the stairs with my head higher than my feet, all the blood ran from my head and I started blacking out. My parents were talking but I couldn't even focus on what they said. It's like your ears start ringing, everything goes black and white, and you're stuck in your own head. I've never relied on instincts more than at that moment. It's like some part of my brain was controlling my entire body while I was thinking "the health teachers would be yelling at me for doing this." At one point I managed to curl up sideways on the stair to get blood back to my head and I let go of the railing and just let my body go limp. My mom said I had broke out into a sweat and my lips were white. My dad managed to carry me down the stairs and to the couch. At that point I wasw coming back to my senses and I completely declined any help offered. I was determined to do it all myself because I was afraid they'd hurt me by trying to help. I don't know how much time had past but my sister said it was an hour or something once I had been on the couch for a little. I hadn't realized how hard I hit my elbow until then. I don't know how I managed to recover like I did. After two hours I could walk again and after we had eaten I went roller blading outside. Still hurts like hell but at least I didn't break anything.
I make it sound so...melodramatic. It was the most exciting thing that happened today.
I make it sound so...melodramatic. It was the most exciting thing that happened today.
November 24, 2010
I've developed a habit of humming wherever I go. I realized that in school I can hum in the hallways and no one can hear me because everyone is too loud to notice. So I've taken up humming. I hummed my way through the grocery store today. It seems a little more acceptable than singing in public. I am slowly going crazy..
November 23, 2010
November 21, 2010
I feel like I don't have enough time in life. I know I have so many more years but the way I look at things makes it seem like I only have 20 or something. Then I think about college and how I have to stick it out through another 4 years until I can start putting all these plans I have into action. I'm finally thinking about the future though. I'll live to see the future, I think.
November 17, 2010
November 9, 2010
I have my foreign friends back. It's been far too long. Imagine losing someone who completely changed your life. They just fall off the face of the earth without a good bye and you have no way of contacting them. Terrible. Glad that's over with. I'm so dramatic sometimes. It's really not that terrible..maybe it is...I don't know..don't ask me.
I cut my hair. I wanted to just trim it but I'm terrible at trimming it and keeping it even so I ended up chopping it off. I liked it long. Boo hoo. I'll have to deal with it. Whatever. So much for growing it out..
I cut my hair. I wanted to just trim it but I'm terrible at trimming it and keeping it even so I ended up chopping it off. I liked it long. Boo hoo. I'll have to deal with it. Whatever. So much for growing it out..
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